2-27-12 Heart of Truth
So Friday after posting the learning to love myself blog and my work day was over I was exhausted so I took a nap after work hoping to have the energy to go to the Dinner Dance that I had been sent a free ticket to attend. It looked like fun and it was all inclusive so I wanted to go, but I was just way too tired to go. My sinus stuff is really kicking my behind big time, and nearly everyone I know has sinus issues. I personally think it has to do with chem-trails, I have know about them for years now, and finally its becoming main stream knowledge. Still wish I knew how to fight them.... but I digress. I happily spent the evening doing some of my online work. At one point I saw a posted video from True Path Readings, the guy in Indiana who reads my cards. It was a Katy Perry video The One That Got Away. I had heard the song many a time and it made me think of Randy every time but I never saw the video. It really surprised me to see that in the video her boyfriend died in a crash, of course this immediately made me think of Randy up there snowmobiling in Vermont, even he knew danger was lurking for him! So I commented to Ray that this was NOT helping me to forget my daredevil! and he replied Oh Cassie! But since my angel card of the day had been St Michael I decided to pray and ask him to go watch over him, I can't let my love for him hurt me anymore but it doesn't mean that I can't care. In another life we can be together but not this one...
Saturday I woke up early and headed out for my Walking and Talking event for my Fun and Easy Fitness Meetup group. I was blustery cold and I was surprised to see that 7 people came! We only walked for 20 minutes but it was fun and we all went to the diner after for some breakfast, the special with tax and tip was only $5, can't beat that! I went home and happily scheduled one for the following Saturday at a new location. In the evening there was a Board Game Meetup at my new friends house, the one who lives 2 blocks from Randy, I felt better when I saw his truck there and knew he was home safe and not up riding. I got a text from my spiritual adviser about an hour after I got there asking me why was she thinking of me at that time, dang spirits need to give this thing a rest! I replied to her and put it all out of my mind and enjoyed my time at the event. It was soooo much fun, we all had a grand time and she promised to host more, its so nice to have friends in my same town who want to hang out, in Flemington I had friends but everyone was so busy all the time. They are going to join me in my beach picnics this summer! I am so so very happy that I moved down this town even if I am not going to be with Randy, my heart is still much happier here.
When I got home I checked my e-mails really quick and saw that someone had replied to my blog post, she told me all about her life now and how rough it is and wound it up with:
i just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. It is going to help me figure out my messy life.
This blessed me so much and I wrote her back and wished her well, saying I would pray for her and send her Reiki and that she should be so very proud of all she has done so far in her life.I was very glad that these pourings out of my heart and the little lessons I include could help another, she wrote me the next day also and said she was going to start trying to write too. I was so glad.
Sunday I got up and decided to go take my Centery class at the gym. I was so tired and sore that I only did half of the class and then headed home. My sinus stuff was so bad that I was having trouble hearing. I did some online work and then napped. In the evening I was too tired to go out. I ended up calling my spiritual adviser and asked her why did she think Randy had lied to me? She said she wasn't sure that it's almost like lying has become a way of life for him, perhaps he wanted to see how I would react or where it would go. I told him this was bothering me why he lied was a puzzle that I wanted to solve. She said when I speak to him again I should call him on it and ask him. I told her I have no intention of ever contacting him again. You'll speak to him she told me, if you go long enough he will contact you and you will answer him. I told her she was probably right and that annoyed me, I am so disgusted with him for leading me to believe she left when she had not and he knew full well she had not and I am especially mad when we were returning home and he insulted me with the I wish you didn't live near me you are harder to hide comment. My heart and soul thrives on truth and is destroyed with lies and half truths. No wonder I had been weary the whole time I was with him and why I was so hungry too I was starving for truth. I had done my soul a great disservice by being with him these last two years, I have much Karama to pay for this and scars to heal inside my heart. I have always worked very hard to be an honest person, and I do not lie but I was living in that lie, and with that lie and I damaged my heart. That is probably why it's been aching so, it no longer was a heart of truth. It is time to heal that, I wouldn't want to go on and try to find someone new until I fix it and thus the vibration it gives out. I must first learn to be honest and true to myself.
Today I want you all to pray and seek guidance and "get to the heart of things" seek the truth in your lives.Hold things up to the light and look at them closely. It will take much courage and fortitude but its the only way to lead a truly healthy life. And only a heart that reveals itself in truth can keep another truly close without causing harm.........
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
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