1-9-12 Focus on Today
So Friday night I decided to blow off going out dancing and spending cover charge money I really couldn't afford and I went to the gym instead. They had a kick boxing class at 6 and then I shopped on the way home. I had planned to go to 5 below and get an air pump for my exercise ball and the gym was giving out free steps for exercising so I got one of those too, looks like I am slowly putting together my own home gym... I did the grocery shopping for my workshop the next day and then when I got home Randy came to fix the kitchen cabinet door for me on his way home from work, he also took a look at the leaking pipe in the basement and told me what I needed to get and said he'd come back for that. While he worked I listened to him talk, he loves when I listen to him talk. He did a lot of repeating of the stories of the fun he has playing with the kids and they were quite boring, I wondered how I had listened to him the first time? Then again I can listen to most any story when I am in that phase of post coital bliss. LOL I asked about what gifts he exchanged with the kids and the woman who lives there and asked him about when did they actually end up coming home on Christmas and how sad it was they left him alone and he said no he wasn't upset. I said you sure were when you called me Christmas eve, again he denied it so I let him believe whatever lie he had told himself. Sometimes we have to let people get by with that sort of thing...sometimes....this was one of those times.
Saturday was my Soulmate workshop day. I woke up early and had a long list of things to do, I got the really important ones done like getting ready for the day and posting two events up. I still did not get to the NYE videos or setting up my e-bay store. So much to do so little time! I prayed for more time, or rather to get more done it the time I have, I am convinced that proper time management is part of evolution since there is no time anywhere else but here on earth, our classroom. But anyway the workshop was wonderful, I only had two students, one my long term BFF as a part of her Christmas gift, and one paying student. So by the time I figured in the cost of my supplies and the snacks I brought I broke even. But I do believe that I helped my friends very much, one in particular seems so together but we did get to a deep hurt and I gave he instructions on how to heal it. Luckily the full moon was the very next day so she could spend the next 24 hrs writing down her homework and then offering it up all in one weekend! She said she was going to do exactly that. During the workshop when I was showing them my vision board and how to create one the little post it that said Always shows up when I need. Kept falling off and each time I stuck it back on visions of Randy fixing my cabinet door the night before so it wouldn't be hanging off its hinge for my workshop kept popping in my head. Stop it I muttered in my mind to whomever was still nagging me on him, I made up my mind I do not belong with him.
After the workshop my BFF Chris and I went to dinner, I asked where she wanted to go and she said pick a place that you have not gone but wanted to so we headed off to Nemo's, an Asian/Sushi place in town that has a lovely view of the bay. It was only 4:30 but I had skipped lunch. I ordered Lemon Grass Shrimp and was astounded by how good it was and so reasonably priced! I hope I get asked on a date sometime I thought, I will have him bring me here. We talked about our life our work our kids, he daughter just left and she is so very happy to have a lower grocery bill, and a cleaner more peaceful house but she misses her too. This empty nest thing is such a dichotomy... Then we went to have coffee at Espresso Joe's, another place I have been wanting to check out. She made us Mocha lattes to die for! Since she had such a long ride she headed home by 6 and I checked in home to collect the rent from my one roommate, left him a note and reminded him that he still has to look for a place and move out as soon as he can. Chris agreed that it was so wrong to expect Jeremy to have to share the basement with him and why would I even want to live with him anyway. You will find someone else or God will send you money another way she had told me and I know she is right.
I then prepared to head out for an event, the birthday celebration of one of the meetup organizers whom I like very much, she's such a sweet person. I got a text from Randy: Hi.....hey I sent back, whatcha doing he replied? Heading out to a party in Highlands I sent back. Ok that's nice he replied. I headed out and thought that was the end of it but I did to reply to him a few more times at red lights..... 50 people are going I sent back....wow he replied....then I sent: I hope you have a fun evening doing navy seal training with junior......he replied that no one was home. Ha I thought last night you blew me off servers you right....but instead I replied well then you have a chance for a nap, I am here now have a good evening.....U2 he sent back. I walked in the door and forgot that he existed..... It was nice to see the people I already knew and I met some new ones as well! I got talking to some people and was telling two women about my attract your soulmate workshop and they had some dating questions. I swear need to write a dating 101 class also! You can teach what you are still learning I am told this again and again! LOL We settled in and ordered drinks, I don't normally drink but I decided to splurge and get a glass of sangria, it was yummy. After a bit we got hungry and decided to split a pizza, I worried about the money but I was hungry. So we talked more and she ended up telling me that she can heal people, she said I have no idea why I just told you that but I felt that I could. So I told her that I was a Reiki master and I can heal people too and do much more and she must be awfully powerful if she can do this with NO training or understanding and I encouraged her to take the Reiki classes. Shortly after that a guy I know from the groups came in to greet me and joined in the three of us and asked for a slice of our pizza, we shared and he ended up paying for the whole pie AND ordered all three of us another drink and insisted on paying! I was impressed, I had been telling the girls that I need to attract a man who pays for me when we go out, and told them of how with Randy I had to pay for HIM. No more of that for me, God created men to take care of and provide for us, the same as he created us to nurture and care for them. Anyway before we left my new friend asked me if I would put the palm of my hand on hers, she said I don't know why but I feel compelled to ask you to do this. I said sure and told her that lightworkers often share energy with one another in this way. She was all excited about the tingle of energy we shared so I told her I am thinking of doing a Reiki share like once a month with the lightworkers I meet she loved that idea. Another thing to add to my ever growing to-do list!
Sunday was Yoga and then divorce support group dinner. We had 4 students for the Yoga and were glad, I talked to Nancy about continuing to charge only $10 and she agreed with me that while others charge more it's better to get it out to MORE people than it is to make a lot of money, we may have only gotten $20 each for our time and gas money but the opportunity to GIVE also had much value. I was reminded on the way over there of the ever present saying: Do what you love and the money will follow. It is so true. I had to remember this more than ever because I got a text message from Domenic that he was moving out the next day and wanted a re-fund of the days not used. Ugh! But my son's peace of mind in whom he had to share that space with is important, I must trust God to provide a better roomate, and to one day supply the income so that I do not need to rent out that space.
After the class I went to a diner to meet up some people from the divorce support group. Wow, just wow. Some of the people are so focused on their pain they can't think straight to navigate their way through this divorce process. This is the first time I did a small dinner with that group and the whole conversation was about the trials and tribulations of the divorce process. Since I have been divorced now for 15 years all of that is a distant memory, however I did have some things to contribute to the conversation. I was very very glad to have been able to say a thing or two that would help them. It got me to thinking that I really need to do more of those Heal Your Heart workshops. These people need this, they need so many things, I need to help them and share with them what I have learned and am still learning. I am going to stick to my keep it affordable for the masses plan too, for my soulmate work shop I charge half of what I had paid for to take the same class and I then in supplies and snacks too! But my primary focus was on helping those who came, in the moment that they came, and who came that day... I am learning, deal with who and what shows up..... There was an e-mail from Randy when I got home later that night, he said thanks for the info for something I had sent him and that he missed me. I couldn't in that particular moment say that I missed him, so I didn't. I just wrote and told him about my fun weekend and wished him well......
Monday my card of the day was Focus and I realize again how much I need to live in the moment, with the people who are in that moment and I also need to focus my thoughts and my energy very very wisely. My primary goal is to help others, my secondary goal is to earn a descent living. So in the car that morning driving to work as I said my mantras again, calling on the angels to assist me, I told them that dollar amount I put for how much I want to earn was a suggestion, that I trusted divine guidance to know how much I really need.... So my bank account is shrinking, but all the bills are paid that were due as of this date. I know how I want to serve, the angels can take care of the monetary details.........I've got more important things to think about!
Today what are you focusing on? How can you fine tune that?..........
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
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