11-4-11 Attract, Don't Repel,Your Soul-Mate!
Well Monday I was feeling a bit crazy and I could not reach Mary my spiritual advisor so I called Chris my friend who had the dream about Randy getting married to that woman. She told me how she had been sound asleep and woke with a start and remembered it vividly, so we talked about it some more and when she told me the woman was wearing a blue suit I recalled that's what my mother wore when she married my step Dad! I bet it was HER I said! She knew that you would tell me the dream and she knew how upset it would make me she was probably trying to do this to get me to talk to Randy! That's the trouble with the communication between this world and the other side, its really difficult and most messages get messed up trying to decode them. But that's also the way it was meant to be for we are here to learn our lessons on our own, they really aren't meant to help us too much. Still I wished that I could have a bit more guidance.. especially on the Randy thing... I did see him driving home, we passed each other on the drawbridge they were working on, so close we nearly could have high fived if we had our arms out...I wasn't sure if he saw me but he did text me once he got to work and I was home to say Booooo and Hi LOL.....I told him of the excitement of having trick or treaters to pass candy out and said do you want me to save you some candy little boy? (You know the answer to that one with me telling your right?) Holidays are the times when I love the 12 yr old side of him I must say....
That night on reading the facebook status's in between answering the door bell I noted what my new friend Beth had posted:
Tuesday Pam and I worked on the CC site, well she did most of the work and I did some talking LOL I did write the homepage statement though which is key and I did pick the day for launch, giving her a full week longer than she said she needed: 11-11-11 It seemed like a fitting day! We also got into a neat discussion on the energy shifts in my spiritualinNJ group on what was happening to them regarding "the shift". I got a little envious and said so as I don't ever FEEL anything and they giggled at me and reminded me of my voice and how that's just my way of connection and i posted this story:
i was pouting one day because my mother had claimed to have seen jesus in her bedroom- i belive she did and i know others see and hear and experience
i was just a child
and my voice said for me to not worry as some need to see so that they can believe but i was going to believe with out ever seeing and that would be better
and i guess u r right, it is just like your knowing just in my personal way
we all have our talents........
Wednesday I worked from home and made crock pot of beef stew, it smelled yummy and since I was using the crock pot Randy got me one year for Christmas (i asked for one) I took a picture and e-mailed it to him tellng him if he wanted to stop over I'd save him a container of it.....he didn't get back to me nor did he text me at all that night from work. Typical of him to pay attention to me then slowly drift away to his own pursuits, I shrugged it off and made some plans to attend some singles events. That night Mary called me, it had been several days since we spoke and I told her all the Randy stuff, she said see he never asked you to marry him because you kept leaving him but he doesn't see how he leaves you abandoned inside the relationship! How are you going to deal with this? Well I told her I am going to look at him as any other friend, when they contact me and want to see me, if i am available I will see them......in the meantime I am going to live my life. I just don't care anymore how it turns out and I am not going to use dumping him as a tool to manipulate him into making a commitment. But that being said I told her, I am not getting any younger, and so far I have not met anyone else I want to be with so why deprive myself of a little fun and closeness when I can get it? I could be 65 or 70 before my mate comes along and too old for that! Besides Randy's like a wild puppy, if I try to hard to hold him he runs away, if I back off he comes running back trying to get my attention... LOL Now you are getting it she said....
Thursday I finally finally got the Attract Your Soulmate workshop posted, the one I have been talking about for over a year about doing, the one I made my vision board for LAST October..... It's been on my to-do list. This time my new friend Beth said she wanted me to do it with her so I pushed on through and got it up there. I hope people come, I know it can help them like it helped me 4 years ago, and I have tweaked out a few of the bugs too! LOL I did some reflecting too on how earlier in the week Randy had said he'd come over an keep me warm this winter to which my reply had been: no you won't have time, all week you have to be with them and all weekend you will be snowmobiling. I thought to myself how that was not a smart thing to say, it's like the girl who wants the boy to ask her to the dance but shes says well you won't want to take me I don't know how to dance and I don't have a nice dress and you probably want to take Suzie anyway. I need to stop this! My behavior is repelling not attracting! I need to learn from the past and belive in the future if I am going to attract my SoulMate into my life and I need to be ready to BE with him and not find reasons to shove him away or not belive in his love. I need to learn from this thing I had with Randy.......every one comes into our life to teach us........let me start with this....
Friday I was off and had training to be a volunteer for a local Hospice agency. Before heading out I sent a quick e-mail to Randy saying I can't see you sunday (because I was going to a singles meetup event) and saying can you come tonight or saturday. Then I headed off to class.........
Today I want those of you who are single and searching for your THE one to think about what and who you really want in your life and I want you to also take a good hard look at the patterns of your past relationships. Did you welcome love or did you question it, fear it, push it aside, not honor it enough? And even those of you who are not looking for romantic soulmates, there are such things as friend soulmates as well. How well have you handled those? EVERYONE who comes into our life is a potential soulmate, and often those we clash with the most are the closest too us in the end, or at least those we learn the most from. So as you go about interacting with people, no matter how they are behaving to you, know this........ love is always the answer.............
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
When Christ said that man does not live by bread alone, he spoke of a hunger. This hunger was not the hunger of the body. It was not the hunger for bread. He spoke of a hunger that begins deep down in the very depths of our being. He spoke of a need as vital as breath. He spoke of our hunger for love. Love is something you and I must have. We must have it because our spirit feeds upon it. We must have it because without it we become weak and faint. Without love our self-esteem weakens. Without it our courage fails. Without love we can no longer look out confidently at the world....
But with love, we are creative. With it, we march tirelessly. With it, and with it alone, we are able to sacrifice for others.
Chief Dan George, 1899 - 1981
Native Canadian Indian Tribal Leader
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