10-7-11 Soulmate Friends
Monday was an in the office day and also Randy's Birthday so I texted him Happy Birthday. I got him nothing this year since he never gets me anything.The year before I had gotten him a wet suit and spent money I didn't have (oh curse you evil plastic cards!) He did tell me all about how much fun he had wearing it though when he took his "kids" surfing in the Hurricane. It is nice to give someone something that makes them so happy, I guess that's the gift I get. He texted me thank you so I was feeling especially kind to him and replied that I hope his "wife" gives him some birthday pokey to which he replied he was going to go out and get that somewhere else. I felt very sorry for him in that moment. On the way home we passed each other and waved, he texted I CU, I replied I CU 2. He then texted that he misses me, you just saw me last night I replied. I was worried about if I was doing the wrong thing trying to be his friend so I called Mary and she said no so long as I don't go beyond friends. She said if he isn't getting the message you are clearly sending now that he doesn't want to and likes having both of you. I wondered who would be there to take care of him when he's old and sick? My money isn't on her to give a shit.....
I then got an e-mail from a person in one of my Meetups, I was thinking of going to help out at the Food Bank Event , so knowing how I generally talk myself out of going out on weeknights I posted that I would car pool if anyone wanted to. That's a good way to really make a real friend. I was happy to see I got a reply from a woman and happier still that she lives just around the corner from me! Maybe I can invite her walking with my neighbor Mary and I! I told the woman to call me the next day as I had a phone Reiki client to call. That worked out pretty good. This woman is such a lovely soul but she has been having some health issues that give her much pain. We had been talking about getting together for nearly a year when I suggested the phone Reiki and she agreed to try it. I had her light candles, set some music and get comfortable then I channeled the energy down and through the phone and called in the distance symbol also. I was called to give her the pool on the mountain meditation that has been given to me by spirit, seems to be the one they tell me to use the most right now. When we were done she said she felt very relaxed and a little better. I told her to see over a few days if she had less pain and to call back in a couple weeks if she wanted another treatment.
Tuesday I woke up and as I left my room I took a look at the Vision Board I made last fall for my Attract My Soul-mate. I really need to finish writing my workshop and start getting one posted to help people and to get serious about attracting my own soul mate love. As I looked at it and read the affirmations I did not think of Randy and how he was not those things and I wished he would change to be them like I usually do. I thought of a new person who already was those things entering into my life with ease and he already being what I want. It really was so foolish of me to think he would be anything other than who he is, that we belong together I have no doubt, I just got confused on what the relationship would be when I did the soul mate workshop and he showed up wanting to be my boyfriend when all along I knew we'd be better suited as friends. There are many soul-mates in our lives, not just romantic ones do not forget that. I felt a bit of joy and a faith in that moment and I must have been on the right track because as I drove into work there was a huge rainbow in the sky, rare I felt for October in NJ...... Once I got to the office a thought crossed my mind that we would have a fire drill, I though oh please not while its drizzling and chilly. Sure enough we had one after lunch but by then it was sunny and a warmer out! I think not only are my powers of intuition are growing but so are my powers of attraction! So kewl! And I also got a coupon for an oil change at Sears 10 min after I decided I would go this Sunday and get one.
Wednesday I worked from home a half day and then I had to use a half day vacation to take Jeremy down to take a test to see if he could be put in vocational training. They told me they will analyze the results and send a letter and then we have to come back again. So annoying how they make you come back again and again and again when you are unemployed they feel you have all the time in the world but they don't consider travel expenses and those who have to drive them. Since it was a vacation day I wanted to do something fun on the way home so we stopped in Pier village for cake and coffee. Jeremy was annoyed and just wanted to get home and I was annoyed that I don't have a companion other than him who wants to take scenic drives and stop off in little cafes with me and enjoy ambiance and conversation. When we got home I took a bike ride by the water and over to the house I want to buy and saw they had paved the driveway finally but they put in grass, Belgian block and stone pillars where I had wanted to put a garage! Randy and I were texting back and forth about that and he said he'd ask the spirits to change it, I said Nah maybe that is not the one for me in my vision, I only saw me on a deck with a view of the bay and the verazzano bridge, perhaps there is another house for me.... He then texted that he finally put in for full time days at UPS but the waiting list goes back many many many years. Oh well maybe that's not the right job for you I sent back....I think you would like being a landlord a lot more..... I had wanted him for a year to put in for days so we could spend our evenings together and now that I don't want him as a boyfriend he finally decides to do it! LOL But still I am glad we are friends, there is comfort in talking to him that I can't explain.....
Thursday everyone was talking about the death of Steve Jobs, the guy who started Apple. Everyone so sad that he died at such a young age (56). Below is a quote of his that I particularly like:
Good advice indeed... Driving home from work there was tons of traffic again, and even with my shortcut I still missed passing Randy. He usually texts when we pass but I decided against texting to explain my missing him. Later on though he texted me and asked if my furnace was still running that he had fixed and I said sure is..he said awesome.. then I said its too hot in my room and too cool in the rest of the house though....I can fix that he replied...well if you get a chance to sneak away from the wife and kids come over I sent back. He didn't reply and that is good I thought. I was supposed to go to a meetup to help out at the food bank and drive that neighbor there but my hips were hurting way to much to do any standing so I e-mailed her that I can't make it. Since people were dropping out of the girls night for the next night I post poned that too. I know I need to get out and work on my friendships but truth be told all I really want is someone to stay home with. SIGH I went and got my car washed, ran to pick up a light up pumpkin on sale and got a pizza at the store to make for dinner. While I was eating Randy texted me a picture of something on his truck and we texted back and forth some. Its nice we are pals, I suspect he's giving me so much attention right now as he wants the benifits too but we shall see.
Friday a few people were dissapointed that Girls Night had been postponed, and a few couldnt make the new date so I posted and told them those who want to go tonight GO, and that I was taking down the new date and can someone please plan something as I was just too busy to co-ordinate but I for sure want to still do this. Another friend e-mailed and asked if I wanted to go out for breakfast over the weekend but I told her I can't afford it, she said she can't either but keeps having to eat out due to her daughtes eating disorder. So I invited her to come eat at my house and liked that idea..... I liked that idea very much. Back home in Ohio we didn't go out to eat all the time we stayed home and we cooked and people stopped over and sat at our tables and we talked. I want to do more of this in my life now..... Time to work on making some best friends instead of having so many acquaintences..... I have complete faith that in due time my romantic soulmate will appear and as if to confirm that my angel card of the day was Soulmate!
Today I want you to take a look and see how many best friends you have and how many of those are real true soulmate friends. Are those you call close as close as they could be? Do you talk often enough? Have them over to sit at your table? Bask in the warmth of true companionship? Why don't you work on those relatioship a little more? Computers, I-pads and smart phones all give us the illusion of being connected to friends but nothing beats face time! Oh and another note, sometimes our soulmate friends cause us the most friction in our life.....there is a reason for that.....its all part of the plan......
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
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