9-30-11 Trading In the Tricycle

   

9-30-11   Trading in the Tricycle

 Monday I put up a new ad for a new roommate and got a really good reply right off the bat. He wanted to see the room that night. I called home and talked to Jeremy and told him to help Anderson get his stuff out, he told me he was having second thoughts so I called him up. He said he was and I said NO you are not you are moving or you are getting out. You led me on and I got several people interested. He has been a bit of a pain too, and he is not working either, and partying all the time, has people coming and going in here all the time. Not a safe bet at all, not to mention up all night and wakes me and Marie. I used to wait longer and put up with not so good tenants but not anymore, I lost too much money and too much peace of mind in the past and I finally learned my lesson.  I also called up the volunteer place to go do Reiki at the hospice places and since I signed up for that I felt OK enough to really start advertising to give it for a fee. So I set up a Facebook event, Distance Reiki Sessions on Sale and started getting that out there. I feel that the giving will bless the receiving. As if to confirm that my weekly quote came in:

The ancient Babylonians practiced a vital law that was the cause of their immense prosperity. They used the tithing law, which involves giving one-tenth of all money or riches that you receive. The tithing law says that you must give to receive, and the Babylonians knew that the practice of this law opens up the flow of abundance. If you are thinking, "I will give when I have enough money," then the tithing law says you will never have enough money, because you have to give first. Many of the wealthiest people on the planet tithed their way to wealth, and they have never stopped tithing!

May the joy be with you, ~Rhonda Byrne~ The Secret...

So Monday night I showed the room to two guys, one was younger and he had contacted me second. The next guy was closer to my age so I told the kid he gets second dibs if the first one does not want it. I apologized but said I just have too much hectic stuff and noise going on for too many young roommates. The older guy liked it but said he made an appointment to see one other he had to keep and would let me know. I know that whomever was meant to get it would get it. I wrote Randy and asked did he want me to give the one who does not take it his number and he said NO. I told him see again the actions do not match the words but no worries I gave him the message I was meant to give him and he can do whatever he wants. That night I prayed to God and thanked him for doing his help in getting me more income, even though I haven't actually gotten any more income yet I put plans in place and I trust them to come to fruition much the same way we plant a seed, water it and expect a harvest. Then I said the next thing I need help with is Jeremy, my son is not happy please help, as a mater of fact help BOTH my sons to find happiness.

Tuesday driving to work I was thinking about my basement, the two boys now living in it, the fact that I want to do workshops in it and yoga once the beach gets too cold and how hot and humid it had been the day before. I finally decided to look into getting some thing to help and found an air cooler that removes moisture at walmart.com for $120. I took a leap of faith and ordered it with one of my credit cards with a lesser than the rest balance. Next I got call from the DVR place and they said they convinced unemployment to look into getting Jermey in trade school first before making him get another minimu wage job! I was so happy!  Then the older guy called about the room and said he needed a few more days to decide about the room so I decided to give it to the kid, well turns out he's 24 and he came and paid me that night and is moving in on thursday. I also got contacted to put an event on my calender and in my newsletter, and she had one in Philly also and wanted me to do BOTH! I really am starting to make a bit by posting and promoting events! I heard from Randy too, he said he can't take the guy because his older "son" is moving back in next week. Oh well that's that I said to him and he replied no more. Mary said he's such an imbecile for staying in that situation. I had found some old pictures of us from when we were dating 4 years ago, he looked so good then..but not so good now. Now he looks all worn down and tired, falling apart here and there and it made me nostalgic a bit and sad a bit. I prayed to God why do I keep going backwards here and my voice said: I can offer you a brand new two wheeler and you keep wanting to ride the rusty old tricycle. Please help me I don't want to stay on the comfortable easy ride I answered back.

Wednesday was hectic to the max! Lots and lots or work and then after work I had back to back things going on. First the interview for the TV show and then also Yoga. To add to the day Anderson came upstairs and told me he had a lot of money stolen from his wallet, he was so upset! I went down to help him look and make Jeremy and his friend who was sleeping over allow him to search them, their backpack and car too. The money was not found and Jeremy swears his friend didn't take it but I told him it was odd that all these months we all get along with no thefts and soon as I allow his friend back, who was banned by me previously, something is stolen. I told Anderson the only thing left to do was call the police but he declined and begged again later to move back upstairs. I told him no he'd just have to move out if he didn't like it down there, he so far is deciding to stay. I did feel bad the next day and left him a note telling him I would do his laundry for him while he stays here to make up for that, that will make him happy. He's been quiter and behaving I think he wants to stay, I think he needs to stay. I can let him but I need him to stay in the basement and his room looks good too I think.

I just got done handling that mess when the woman came to do my interview for photo ID TV show. She scanned all my pictures and asked me to give a brief audio interview. At the end she asked me to give a life lesson statement. I knew that was coming and had been thinking about it and nothing came, not until she shoved the microphone in my face! LOL  After discussing Cassie's Calendar, the shyness of my early years the coming out of my shell in my college years and the start of my social network partying after my divorce I told her I learned one very valuable thing: Weather it lasts a reason, a season or a lifetime, EVERY friendship counts!  I can't wait for this to be on the air, co-incidentally it should be ready in about a month and thats around Halloween when my dear friend told me that the new website she is building for me should be ready....She rushed off as she knew I had the Yoga thing but instead of handshake she insisted on giving me a hug before she left! I rushed off to the beach to meet Nancy, no one showed up but it was sorta drizzly this evening. She had he friends kids with her anyway, so we brought the kids back to my house and I took her down and showed her the basement and what it looked like with both boys down there. She said it was fine, that we could get 6 in there and if the class grows we will worry about an alternative place later on. I felt so relieved as I had been having a lot of anxiety about the space.

Thursday I was so bogged down with work I had to ask my co-worker for help. My workflow keeps growing and growing, but at least I have a job! I was busy getting my newsletter ready so I could send it late that night instead of friday morning due to the fact the server bogs up on friday mornings. I had two paying customers too so it had to be right! So far the only thing I make much at is Yoga (sometimes) and advertising on CC. It earned me enough to pay the electric bill and that made me very happy. It took 3 hrs of my evening but when I figured it out it was about the same rate of pay I get at J&J! My Dad had sent a link that Dustin had sent him asking him to forward about his stance on abortion so I wrote to Dustin offering him a fourm on CC to do his preaching. I told him he can express ANY view he wants so long as he graciously accepts rebuttal. I told him he wanted a soap box, well I got one that reachs 8,000 ppl...come try it. He didn't reply to that but he found out some banking stuff and he wrote to caution me about it, that gave me some hope that our relationship would improve....time will heal it he just needs to grow up a bit more....

Friday I woke up with a thought in my head and I wrote to Randy, I told him that it was bugging me like crazy that I had been wrong about advising him to get a roomate when his "son" was coming back to live, I told him the only expliantion I have is that it's his grandmother meddling again. See I am not good at getting messages and I don't always know where or who they are coming from. All I can do is relay what I hear. So I asked him to talk to her and ask her to stop meddling with me , that he chose them and to leave me be so I can find my own man. He wrote back later in the day and he said sure he will talk to her and he asked if I wanted to meet him at Bhars sat or sun. I thought about it and I said Maybe. I'd like to have peace with him so we shall see how my weekend goes if I am not meant to see him the Universe will take care of that. One thing I know for sure, Randy is a tricycle and I am ready for a two wheeler.... Not that a tricycle can't become a two wheeler IF it wanted to, but that would take a major tear down adn rebuild. And besides Randy's quite happy being a tricycle and there's not a thing wrong with that...for him. For me well it's just a painful ride and I am just too old for it....  .

Today I think about if you have any tricycles in your own life and see if you just might be ready to trade them in for a brand new two wheeler..........Oh the places you will go if you do!!!.......


With Love and in the Light, Cassie

9-26-11 Breaching the Barriers

Your task is not to seek for love,
but merely to seek and find all the barriers
within yourself that you have built against it.
Rumi ♥

9-26-11   Breaching the Barriers

Friday I was trying to bake some cookies, I had promised my friend who offered to pay for me if I met him at a meetup that night to bring him some so I had to make them! I went out to get the mail and there was ANOTHER bill that I didn't have the money for! UGH what was I going to do now? I also was going through the pictures Dad scanned for me for some new TV show they are going to do, they said those of us who would be interviewed and provide photos could plug our businesses so I thought of plugging CassiesCalendar. He sent me one as a baby being held by my Mom and that made me miss her all over again. The first batch of cookies came out burned, the second too moist and I was stressing over the cost of my ingredients and called Jeremy up to finish so I could get back to my work. I am so frustrated over not yet being promoted, despite the fact that I do work well above my level, and thought that even more as I straightened out yet another issue caused by high ups at the company who write procedures for jobs they have never done and don't get it right. Oh so very frustrating! I am smart, smarter than most of them.....but I didn't get my degree like they did and few value work smarts but then again I had passed down an offer to go back to school, I wanted to make money with my healing and helping people not in the corporate world anyway...

So I headed off for the event, feeling icky that I had to let someone pay for me, (I am not very good at receiving can you tell?). I then noticed I needed gasoline again, another $37..I was praying dear God how can I attract money to me when I have so many fears about lack? Help me! I then felt that what was needed was to just keep saying thank you for providing for all my needs, thank you for bringing me enough money to pay all my bills. I said that to myself all the way into the event... When I got there everyone was so nice I was glad I came, one woman though I got to talking to the most, and what an amazing talk we had! Turns out she too is a reiki master and she earns a living that way! With out advertising! She gets all her clients by word of mouth, they are all over the world and she does the sessions over the phone! She said that I should do the same, she said she sees me making lots of money if I can just open up to it. She said perhaps with my blog and with the stones is my best thing, that's what she was sensing and she said the energy coming from me gave her goosebumps! We also talked about why I moved down here, she had also not that long ago and had come from near my old town! I told her I was called to heal the water and what I did when the hurricane was coming and my area handn't flooded or lost power and she high fived me. This all really got me psyched! At the end of the event I went over and thanked my friend for getting me to come and paying for me and that he was special because I had been meant to meet this woman, he said yeah see I can be a real bitch sometimes but I deep down I am a good guy. Yes you are I said and thought to myself see I chose to love and forgive instead of stay angry and hurt and look at the blessings it brought me!

Driving home from the event again my voice asked me: Would you sell your gift to make money? This time I answer back yes, yes I think I would, after all artists sell their paintings, singers sell their songs, writers sell their books and these things all bring blessings and inspiration to others and the money these people earn allows them the time to create even more. I had told the new Reiki friend that I wanted to make lots and lots and lots of money but not to buy things but to do things, she said oh I see that your hands would be a good place for money to be. After I got home my friend who had treated me to the event texted me to tell me that my ex-business partner was at the karaoke event he stopped off at. We had been talking about him and he told me how broke he is....I know this business was for US to make money, but he just didn't work it, he didn't rise up to the occasion. I keep feeling like messaging him and asking him if he's ready to work now....not sure if I should or not....going to have to pray on that more. I am sure everyone who knows him will tell me no.....but still I can't forget how Mary had said she was certain he had been one of the apostles.....deep deep down inside him under the crap and the bad choices and the pain I know he's got a beautiful soul.....

Saturday was one of my picnics on the beach and despite that over 50 signed up we only got about 12. They had been calling for rain and lots of it and many changed their plans, for some reason they just won't believe me when I tell them it doesn't often rain on my outdoor events! LOL I confess I was worried the night before with all the downpours and I went down there before going home and gave some extra reiki and said extra prayers. And the Universe came through!! The weather could not have been better! The turn out was low but those who came were very content. One guy his girlfriend had just died , only 42 and very unexpectedly! He truly needed some comforting. Another guy came who asked us gals some dating advice on how to relate to women in the dating world and told us about a troublesome relationship he had just been in. Jeremy even came down and had a good time, I had to call him to bring some spices and butter so Rich could make us hobo apple pies, there were yummy! I think he made a new friend too. Cecilia and I took some amazing sunset photos too:

Sunday was our first Yoga on the beach for beginners that was on a weekend day, again they were calling for lots and lots of rain and again I prayed very hard for no rain, I woke up to partially cloudy skies and a 30% chance of rain and started praying hard! I also prayed for lots of students too! I said dear God please give me at least 16 so that I can have the $80 to pay that bill. The sun came out and shone brightly and people started contacting me for directions....... in the end we got only 4 paying students but the weather was awesome and we had a lovely time, they all said they would come back for the next Sunday one and its this very next Sunday so I still have time to make more money to pay that bill. Now where to get the money for the electric bill??

Two of my friends came back to the house with me, one I am going to do a jewelry party with for her and the other is building my new CassiesCalendar website for me.I am very excited about the new website and have been waiting patiently for her to be done, today she told me that she decided to start all over and use a new platform so it's going much faster and we may be able to launch by Halloween! Perfect I told her because I am being interviewed for a TV show and I get to plug my business! I told her I want to make this a real business and I want her to be a partner but I need her help to be business, she says yeah I know because you give everything away! I know though that this friend and I are meant for big things because the very first time I had dinner with her just us gals I had a very special experience, and it was just about a year ago, you can read about it in last years blog Its Electric I did pour my heart out to them about my financial woes, it felt good to have someone listen and it relived some of my worry. The friend I am doing the jewelry party for told me that she is going to be doing some shows so if she finds any that are inexpensive she will let me know so I can go sell my stones. I confided in them that I wanted to see if my ex-partner wanted to finally do the work needed to sell them and they both gave me a resounding NO! They had both dated him in the past so they knew him well, I hadnt thought of that coincidence before I brought it up but I saw it as the sign that I needed. The Angel Card of the Day had been signs!


Later that night my buddy called me and we had a long talk about relationships and barriers and such. He asked me truly do I think I haven't found THE one and I told him fear fear fear I am afraid of love and afraid that it will hurt like it always has. He then asked me why I let myself have a relationship and fall in love with Randy and I said it was plain and simple, because he was like a puppy dog begging me to love him and coming back to me no matter how many times I pushed him away. I actually had even had a message for him earlier in the day and so I e-mailed it to him. I said the people up there (and he knows what I mean when I say that) told me to tell you to get a roommate for the room your older kid just moved out of, that is all.. His reply to me was in my mail box Monday morning, he just said Ok I will do that. And since I do love and miss him and I do hope to be his friend even if he doesn't want to be my husband I sent him a bit of advice too on how to do it and he thanked me. You really can't welcome a new love in your life until you make peace with the old ones.....

Monday morning my card was Archangel Michael , and that meant to pray for him when you are in great fear so all the way to work I prayed to him to take away my fear about money and the lack thereof. I also prayed and prayed for the money to pay my bills. I walked in the office and had an idea! I went and checked my credit union where I have my work pension and found out i can take out another 5k loan so I applied for it. I know its just a band aid to my real financial problems but it will pick up the slack and keep my bills paid for the winter at least and give me the peace of mind to really launch my other endeavors in earnest. God really doesn't ever let us down......fear is the only barrier that keeps us from everything......

Today I want you to take an inventory of what you are afraid of and I want you to compare those fears to the lack in your life. What are you NOT getting because of fear? Is it Love? Friends? Financial abundance? Maybe you have some creative thing you are meant to do? What do you want and what can you change to get it??

With Love and in the Light,  Cassie